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Friday, 13 February 2009

  • Valentine's Day

    woah. tomorrow is valentine's day. i am not sad. nor angry. nor lonely. nor afraid.
    i am content. and happy. you see. going through loneliness. and like. and "love". and heartbreak. has shown me something.

    love is not "oh baby you're beautiful let's kiss." i mean, sure that is love. but that's not the only thing love is.

    love is what my friends show me every day when we're calling each other derogatory names.

    love is what my instructor's show me when they take the time to show me step by step how to succeed.

    love is what my parents show me every day when they send me off to school and tell me to make good choices.

    so you know what, i am single.
    i don't have everything i want in my life.
    but hot damn.

    i have got so much love.

    happy valentine's day everyone.

Sunday, 08 February 2009

  • Currently
    Stronger
    By Britney Spears
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    Stronger Than Yesterday.

    It's nothing but my way.


    This is all in my hands. My life. My now. My future. My forever.
    It is all mine.

    I can do anything with everything.
    I can do everything with anything.

    Every day is a new day and they do not tie together.
    I can be whoever I want.

    I don't have to wait until I get into college.
    I don't have to wait until I turn 18.
    I don't have to wait for someone to sweep me off my feet.

    I've got myself.
    I am the only one who can mold me.
    I am the only one who can make me happy.
    I am happy.

Sunday, 01 February 2009

  • Currently
    That Green Gentleman (Things Have Changed)
    By Panic at the Disco
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    Things have changed for me.

    And that's okay.

    I over think everything. I've realized that as much I want this,
    I can't make it happen.
    Neither can you.
    You're busy. I'm not.
    So I spend so much of my time waiting.
    I would wait if I thought that's what you wanted.
    It's not.

    He wants me.
    I know it.
    He tells me.
    I want him.
    Not like I want you,
    But in that situation,
    I have only one option.

    And so I'm going on.

    I want to get serious - as serious one can get from... hundreds of miles away.
    I don't have to be your boyfriend. I just want to know that someone is thinking of me.
    I just want to know that the feeling is mutual.

    What I don't want is to force that on you.
    Because I did that once [accidentally] and it took me a year to get over it.

    So this is my final prose about you and I.
    We can still be friends right?


    ...right...


    pessimistic.

Monday, 26 January 2009

  • Secrets.

    Even if I closed my eyes,
    and went to sleep.
    I couldn't escape you.

    Because somehow
    you've surpassed the walls
    I built to protect.

    You have not torn them down,
    though i'm sure you will
    if you so chose.

    But you went around the walls,
    and are now trapped inside this room,
    with me.

Friday, 23 January 2009

  • Jump In.

    Why do I rush into relationships -any kind- when I know what i do?

    I am meant to have acquaintances, and no one close to me.

    I can't trust. I am afraid. Everything has the same outcome.
    I end up alone.

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